I have all these ideas of what I want to do with my own photography. I'm kinda a little bit all over the place, but I know where my heart lies with it. I was feeling guilty for wanting to move forward with Mom Photo Balm, because the thing I'm photographing the most in this season of my life is my children and I don't want to exploit their childhood just to grow Mom Photo Balm. So, I've set all these parameters in my mind for what I'm comfortable sharing with the whole world (by that, I mean the internet) to protect & respect their privacy.
The internet seems so big and scary to me. Yet, I feel like I'm doing a disservice to myself & not reaching my own full potential (personally & professionally) by being scared of the internet. This fear can also be a disservice to my children if I'm not helping them navigate the waters of the internet; but, how can I do that if I'm too scared to get out there myself? The unknown, change, something outside of my routines makes me so uncomfortable and anxious! Since I've learned I struggle with anxiety, as a means of survival, I've been avoiding diving into the deep of the internet. Oh, I don't wanna fool with the internet! I don't want to fool with social media! It makes me anxious. I can control not being on the internet. That makes me feel like I'm controlling my anxiety. To an extent, my absence from the internet did empower me. (But, was I really controlling my anxiety? Or was I allowing fear to control me? Y'all, obviously I talk to myself in my head a lot.)
Recently, I heard someone say we need to quit thinking of social media as a part of the internet; it's the revolution of the internet. Social media is the internet. Say what? Add to that, the internet is here to stay. It is just as much real world as our face to face world. So, they're both real. It's all real. So, I need to be all in it. This is so weird to me!
I also know that any tool we can use for good to spread the gospel, Satan will try to taint. I find encouragement in 2 Timothy 1:7.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Say it again... Power. Love. Sound mind.
THAT is exactly the balm I've found through photography!
I'm making a conscious choice to not live in fear. I'm jumping into the deep. I'm all in with Mom Photo Balm! I'd love to swim where you are to talk more about this balm I've found behind my camera. Where do you want to talk? Facebook? Instagram? Email? Phone? At your home? I'm all in. After all, you should never swim alone.
Friendship is the finest balm,